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TF RAMBLING

all of my dreams last night was about her...some of them were wonderful some of them were just bizarre. for example me standing in front of her car and it suddenly starting by its self to run me over. I have twice in the last three months to try and find a replacement and I have accepted today that I cant. She is the one, We had it confirmed on my brithday and now I just dont know what to do, do I wait until she is ready or do I find a relationship but never be fullfilled. I was lying in bed last night and I was think about this. I would never fully be happy with someone else, Even when I sat there and asked for spirit to send me someone. I felt my guide ask me was that what I really wanted.
But she is choosing duty over love. Even though its so hard. I miss her everyday and for the last few months I have hated her and I mean really hated her. I have hated her as much as I love her which isnt a good combination, I keep thinking and telling my friends that I am over her. You never get over your twin. My best friend tim did a reading for me just when the relationship started it showed me alone for a while in the wilderness and her coming back.
I was thinking last night about our relationship and how it started and then I compared it to all the other relationships that I have had since I was old enough.
My first girlfriend was at the age of 13 and on and off that lasted six years, she broke my heart twice but the pain was nothing compared to what my twin did to me.
Then there was a guy and he cheated on me

Now my Twin.....
I made a few mistakes and I gained some understanding. I remembered watching Han**** on the plane and it spoke about twin flames in fact it was based on twin flames its self. it was sort of saying to be with your twin flame can be bad for you. but as many as us know it can be good for you.
Okay rambling over
Rostaria

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Comment by rainbow girl on May 30, 2009 at 11:13pm: Maybe what is meant to be is meant to be and we can put our trust in believing that if something is meant to be then it will, and if it isn't then it won't. Don't know if this helps :-)

Comment by James on January 17, 2009 at 10:55pm: I am not even going to bother and say let her go because I dont know what its like, but if you can at least love some 1% then you can be in a relationship James